REFLECTION

2009-08-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

mich told me a secret today!!! haha..woah..
but i promised her not to tell anyone..lols..
it makes me ponder some things again..yes..AGAIN..
but while..it onli happen for a few min..

i chose nt to face it. i chose not to think about it.
i chose to FOCUS now..and i will do my very best..

i mus pass my econs this time for prelim!!!and of cos do well in a level!

2009-08-08T11:56:00.000+08:00

its been super long since i blog! lols..
long weekend, but wed hav 2 test..=/
i am feeling damn sick nw..lols..
lie on bed for e whole day..
3 days cannot go out =/

2009-07-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

control it.
resist it.
forget it.

2009-06-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

i am bored. so decided to have a short post. lols..
i am listening to yiruma's music currently. hahas..the songs are very nice!
and nw i'm learning to play 'river flows in you'. =)
oh, i like e song 'one day i wil leave behind' too =D

2009-06-19T22:41:00.007+08:00

this blog is reopened!! haha..but i also didn update much. so dun be too anticipated to read my blog..LOLS =)

anw thus my birthday..went to eat buffet! a funny incident occurs there..haha..

here are my presents :
MY GIANT LOLLIPOP! can see e many lollipops inside? hehex..from my brother..

MICKEY MOUSE FROM MY bro's gf=)

this is done my sweetie veron!!! love u!! *pinch* >.<
this 162 stars is MADE BY TING AH YUAN!!! HEHE! I WILL TREASURE IT!=DD

and thanks my friends for ur wishes and the wallet bought. i lazy to take photo so nv upload.hahas..but i'm using it alre! =)

ok thats all for today. jiayou for mye! =)

2009-06-15T18:00:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel lost. i feel miserable.
will i ever get of out this?

2009-05-08T20:16:00.002+08:00

i am so so demoralised today cos my physic cher wanted to see me..lols..
so i've decided to work hard for my physic nw!! well, at least try..lols..
miss tan has nw become my motivation!!

today he sat in front of me! lols..but of cos i nv look at him..hahas..
ting ah yuan action was damn funny when she was tryin to hint to me..

but anw, i say again i dun like him!! haha..erm, jus a crush =D
but due to miss tan, i've decided to channel all my energy towarda A level!
but of cos its nt becos of him tt i nv do well, its due to other stuff..ahhas..

ok..shall stop here, chattin online with auntie lim

2009-05-07T20:51:00.003+08:00

so many tutorials to do!!
i'm beginin to feel e stress and urgency..lols..
i shall relax and work hard for my A level!!!

anws..our sch performing arts has performed well and got gold with honours!!!!
namely dance, choir, CO and band..great job! haha=P

2009-05-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

long time nv blog..too tired recently..lols..
anw, tok bout wed..
i finally met my junior supeng..my partner on our trip to tpjc..
why we go there? for cca stuff..
we spent one hr plus gg there, partly cos we lost our way..
after tokin for bout 15 min..we went off..
so its like we travel all e way to e other side if s'pore for e sake of the 15 min..
whose idea was it?lols! i dunno..

anw tpjc is damn nice!! big! and beautiful!! so envious..lols..
supeng was nice..haha..
i think irt was e first time i tok so much to someone i met for e first time..
we had quite alot in common

- no sense of direction
- dislike indecisiveness
- likes kfc and macs
- dun finish our drink
- geminis

of cos there are some differences too, she can fight!!! hhahaha...nice. i wish i could too..

thursday, it was sports carnival..
we had a long day..lols..
but i think e event was successful anw..hahhas..
and i saw... our eyes met..ahha...lols..

stupid mich always make me emo again..but nvm..
i adjusted myself back again ..

oh..and thing ah yuan has nt been feelin well nowadays!
hope she get well soon and her head is fine!!! =DDD
tc ah yuan!!=)

2009-04-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

its time to stand up..AGAIN..

2009-03-29T21:19:00.004+08:00

i thnk i wont get sick of watching this show. omg. i watch repeatedly today. and it keep triggering my thoughts. the more i watch the more i feel that e niki is so blessed!!! hahas..well ,of cos she died in e show in e end. but at least she found someone who she likes and who likes her alot! i think i should prevent myself from relating reality to shows..HAHA! SUCH THINGS WILL NV HAPPEN IN REALITY..LOLS..well, most likey..

2009-03-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

I WAS DOING TASK 2 AND WAS BORED SO I SUDDENLY THINK OF CHANGING MY BLOGSKIN.

and so i cam across this. i've watched this show last year, introduced to me by shy yng. lols.
it was a sad ending and i kind of disappointed.
this show is being shown again in scv during weekdays at 9pm and i watch for the 2nd time!
i love this show i think. it was every touching. next tues will be e last episode!lols!
and i told ting ah yuan tt i dun mind dying if~~~~~~~~~~~~~HAHAAAH.
well, maybe i wont think so if it really was me..haha.

i will change this skin again next week..hehes..

oh! this sunday i will be able to finish emergency unit!yay!=D

ok, back to doing task 2 and my piano theory hw =/

2009-03-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

i need one more day to get over that dream..
i guess i noe y i hate myself for havin such a dream..but well, one day. thats it.

anw today i went bugis with my mama! ahhas..
i'm happy to see her happy=)
i bought a dress today for 25 dollars..a pants and pouch also that we will both share tgt..ahhas..
and we took neoprint today! hahas..childish but i think e pics are nice! =D

2009-03-19T10:33:00.002+08:00

i had a dream..despite e fact that i didn think bout it anymore..
i dreamt of him
he held my hands, and i shook it away..
e onli thing i rmb is.. i noe i mus reject
to protect myself,
to protect myself from e hurt..
i tot everything is real..
till i wake up..
it was a relief..
but i hate myself from having such a dream..

2009-03-18T19:49:00.004+08:00

i went to jog in e morning!! hahas..
i was kinda shocked when i went there..
there was a bunch of marathon runners! lols..i was so s to run..
but in e end i pluck up my courage and ran..lols.. they were using e 1st 2 lane..
so in e end i jog 3 rounds on 5th lane, 1 round on 1st lane and 1 round on 3rd lane..
after tt while i was walkin back to interchange, someone called me from behind. it was JESS!!
LONG TIME NV SEE HER! ahah..
so we chatted sometime b4 leaving..

reach home quickly bathe eat the go sch..
today went to chinatown with e elderly..lols..
my leg is damn tired nw..haha..
and my room is in a total mess..mus clear by this week..lols..=)

2009-03-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to amk park to do e exploration thingy..
i like e place! its nice to go there early in e morning..and nice to jog there too..[well, i nv jog]..hahas..
the fitness corner was so cute! lols..lazy to upload e pic..
and so after e whole session my leg was filled with mosquito bites=/

watching a hk drama 'E.U emergency"..but the funshion uploaded till episode 18 onli!!!
i was so devastated and search for other sources and onli manage to find 19 =(
maybe its nt ready yet..lols..i think i search for bout an hr..zZz..
oh..another show 'Gentle crackdown' is not bad too..hahas..
but i still prefer E.U. nt much nice shows suitable for me now..hope to have more "investigative" show in future!! maybe a forensic hereos 4???haha=)

2009-03-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

i hereby say that i 99.9% dun like e guy anymore due to some reasons..haha

2009-03-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

damn tired today..
went to eat sushi buffet at jurong point! there are lotsa food there!!lols..
very nice!! hahas...then went back to cwp to see my hp. i changed my hp..
was very angry cos have to wait for a very very long time..there were this grp of 3 who was at e counter from e moment we step into e stall to e time till we leave..lols..and so my mood was affected by this..ahhas..
i think my mood sway every easily..lols

2009-03-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

last day of sch today!!!!!!! erm, for the term..hahahas..
auntie lim flew off today. To thailand..lols..
and my gp grp were saying without her we are so efficient and good..she is a distraction..HAHA.
wonder her reaction when she read this..lols..
not much hw actually..except GP!!!!! as expected..lols.
and i am gg to enjoy this one week of hol and slp lots lots!=DDD

i feel guilty about sth recently..on thorough thought. i think i will try to change. i can imagine the feelings felt by that person, and i think that is kinda uncomfortable and bad..lols..see how time goes..
but i know i'm right by thinking this way =)

sth weird happen recently. or maybe say today. i was havin a crush on a guy for past few months..lols..and was like yearning to see him everytime. jus when i decided to stop this and as i told mich , alre 'si xin' i kinda saw him 3 times today..lols..
life is such huh...

seriously, i nv think/dun dare think if i like him anot.haha.but i THINK i wont like a guy whom i didn even speak to b4! lols..i jus think that he's a good guy, at least doesn gimme the feeling that he's a flirt. most guys today are flirts..lols..i sound extreme..HAHA..so mich save me a place in gu po wu!lols..ok . i will try nt to be so myopic in my view..hahas

2009-03-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

I PASSED NY SHUTTLE RUN BY 1 SEC..PHEW..
well, so overall i get a bronze..lol.. =P

anw, was pissed off by my bro in e morning that i cry..
and my mum complained to me again.. sighs..
and i cry more when i think of the dream i had yesterday..
i say out those words that i wish to say in my heart all e time, revealing my true feelings..
but this nv happen in reality..yup..=)

oh..before i end this post, i will continue to hypnotize myself...(secret)and stop myself from thinking it..i hav confidence that maybe 2 weeks later will be ok.

YI RI YOU U BETTER DUN DISCOURAGED ME!!!!! LOL

2009-03-03T17:50:00.001+08:00

my eyes have been uncomfortable these days. and i realise today there are 2 eyelashes inside!!!lols..
i tried to take out for some time but failed to. and my mum managed to take out for me!!!haha
now my eyes kinda pain..zZz..
wearing specs tml..lols...

2009-03-02T17:08:00.003+08:00

i totally screw up my physic spa today and dropped a few drops of tears..lols..
well, jus a few drops..hahas..
i feel good after huggin ting ah tuan and auntie lim, thats how i feel loved, hahax..

and i love auntie lim!! cos of the 2 packets up gummies she gave me today..lols..
and she kenna caught by miss tan for eating in the lab =DDD

oh, after sch went to eat at the hawker center near PHS..
the western food there is damn nice!
CHEAP PLUS BIG PORTION! =D
should eat there more often next time..lols..

anws, i think i shall forget bout the goal that i am working towards now..
it seems to make me unhappy by forcing myself to forget sth..
at least if i ignore this goal i would find myself happier..HAHHAHAHAH..

-end of my goal-

2009-03-01T21:29:00.001+08:00

2 days left to 2.4km run
4 days left to 5 items
28 days left to my goal =)

2009-02-28T21:29:00.002+08:00

sighs, quarrels again. i am tired of these.
it hurts me when i see my mum cries.
Cant my bro be more understanding sometimes?

after all these i alrd cant sense who is in the wrong anymore.

29 days left to my goal

2009-02-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 4 plus..wth lols...
cos i was disturb by the noises by bro made, too bad i'm sensitive to noises and cant get back to slp easily =(

anws.. i dunno where the news came from that i like kenny!!! lols!! i was shocked [abit] when i heard it, and i spent a few seconds thinking who he is !lols! i was amused by this piece of news..
well, fact is i dun even noe this person well and speak to him less than 10 sentences =.=
so.. i dun like him!!!!!!! =.=!!!

so lame.

sometimes its better to forget things to prevent urself from sinking deeper.
even if it means forcing urself.

30 days left to the goal i set =)

2009-02-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

i have decided to blog at this timing because i am EXTREMELY ANGRY AND PISSED OFF NOW!
what the 'short' guy says has some truth in it. but its contains only like 20 percent of the truth. AND WHERE THE HELL DID HE GET THAT INFORMATION FROM. i feel uncomfortable about letting the info flows amongst.. ... ...
or maybe i'm in e wrong as i nv make it clear right from e start.
wadever it is, this thing has affected my mood again jus when i am getting back on the right track.

ARGH!!!! YI RI YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THEM NOW!!!!!!!!!!

its was like no secret anymore. and i onli tel 2 person =.=
wth..
no matter wad, i hereby tell myself that i wont bother bout wad others say. what matters is that i know myself and there are friends who know me. *cooling down*

as for the others, PLEASE JUS MIND UR OWN BUSINESS AND KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT IF IT DOESN CONCERN U.

-END OF POST -

2009-02-18T19:29:00.002+08:00

jus a random post: my leg is aching from e run, and tml there's pe again..lols..
o ya..my junior nv get into interact club..sad=/

i am sick of chocolates
i love thursdays..... =D

2009-02-17T22:10:00.001+08:00

AND I JUS REALISED MY AG IS NOT DONE.
STILL THINKING OF SLPING EARLY TODAY. LOLS..
I SHALL GO WRITE STH NW..I DUN WAN TO BE CHASED OUT OF E CLASS AGAIN! LOLS

2009-02-17T21:30:00.003+08:00

today PE was fun and funny..hahas..
we had our first 4X100 run, pam and i feel so retarded that we are ACTUALLY going to run..lols..
but we are lucky, cos we were the 2nd person who ran and the spectators cant see us run! hahas..
auntie lim was suay, she was the 4th person and the last to reach the finishing line..

next is 8X50, i was the second person and i missed catching the baton, in e end i cause the whole team to be e last. i'm sorry..haha..and most sorry to auntie lim, who was the last AGAIN...
she very chu feng tou today!!=DD

again, today i was angry bout sth else. lols..and i think it was because of my bad mood, that i actually give my mum a very bu shuang face and in a bad tone..which i seldom did..
apparently its becos i didn even bother to speak to them..
anws, come to think of it, i wonder when did i REALLY start to keep things from my family and share it with my friends.
nevertheless, speaking to others is a good feeling =)

today mas civics was hilarious! we laugh for a good 45mins!! the person's expression was damn funny..LOLS..
but there was sth that i have to agree/disagree with.
-love at first sight was stupid la, i dun think this kind of thing happen
-who says gals will cry out like little gals, that is absolutely wrong. so far i onli spot gals who cry quietly/sniffs..LOLS

but this session makes me reflect on some things
and i will not commit e same mistake again=)

o ya!!! sorry yi ri you if i sound nasty in nowadays whether in tone or msg.
gimme 1 week and i will be back to normal!!!=DD

2009-02-16T16:38:00.003+08:00

I DISLIKE HYPOCRITES

I DISLIKE PPL WHO ACT NOBLE

I DISLIKE ATTENTION-SEEKERS

I DISLIKE PPL WHO BOAST

the above sums up my anger for e day. but nvm, i shall not feel angry for long.

2009-02-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

I AM STARTING ON MY TASK 2 NOW =)

2009-02-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

was feeling sleepy e whole day..lols..
wonder y..body getting worse..i must be healthy!!! haahahahha..
jus finished my first econs essay, with e help of e essay guidebook, i finish in no much time..
hahas=D

getting closer to yi ri you nowadays!lols.
she's a super funny person who likes to gossip and has a big mouth.
but she's also a good friend to confide in, a person who knows all my secrets..lols..
maybe she was right about sth..but i do not dare to face it, nor think about it..
i tried thinking about it, but i stopped myself within seconds.
whether she was right or not, i do not know, cos i do not have the ans to myself too..

so now.. i shal put all my energy into studies! o ya..and my piano..lols..
goin to do my 2nd econs essay nw =)=)

2009-02-13T22:41:00.003+08:00

today was college cip..
sth funny happen..ahha!
mich and shy yng alight at e wrong bus stop!!
and mich was running as if she doesn even care a damn about shy yng!!haah!!
advise: nv walk with auntie lim, u will lose ur way..lols..

anw, the block tt my grp is in charge of collected very few things, whereas other blocks have alot..hahas..we finished very early, and we have to wait for a few hrs jus to wait for the truck!we are the last grp. LOL.
the most annoying thing was that in e end we were released b4 the truck came..lols..

this week seem to be hectic, have to chiong hw again..lols..must work hard=DD

2009-02-03T21:39:00.007+08:00

today is pre-napfa!!lols..overall was ok anw..
after sch me and ah yuan do hw..cos i had a thing gg on at 6pm..LOLS..
and we suddenly tot of the crispy chicken at j8! so..we went there!
i think i'm gg to be fat again after starting to eat junk food and tibits plus choc at home..lols..
we took some pics..

me carrying ah yuan's bag!

ah yuan carrying my bag! i think she look nice with it=D

2009-02-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

its pre-spa today [chem]..and lemme point out 4 mistakes i made today..

1)i spill the whole beaker of water on e table, and my papers are wet, and so i borrowed foolscap
from nandeesh

2)i forgot to adjust the water in burette to 50cm mark, and so the water level was above it. i was
like..stunned.so i jus estimate the amt and subtract off it

3)i nv prepare distilled water at all, well, i didn even noe it was needed. So i was like collecting it
halfway through the experiment

4)for the 1st ept, we supposed to add water in the flask and he subsequent steps blah blah blah
with the teacher looking, i tot the adding of water dn need as it was easy. wads there to look at?
And so my teacher asked me to show her again on my 2nd expt.

i would like to conclude that despite all these mistakes i made, it cannot be as shocking and serious as wad ismail had done. he broke the whole basket of appratus! LOLS. we were all STUNNED and feel like laughing at e same time.

jus when i type till here, i jus realise i nv do my physic practicasl ws..zZz..there seems to be so many things awaiting.lols..shall do tml in sch..

was doin gp research in e afternoon/evening, i didn do alot, felt somewhat guilty..lols..

2009-01-29T19:47:00.001+08:00

i have no strength to walk now..
due to pe, flu, and fever in the afternoon..lols..
i feel sleepy nw..slp?? HAHA.so early..LOLS..
i think i like to slp =D
so this's the end of my post=)

2009-01-28T22:26:00.005+08:00

MY FRIEND PONNED CCA TODAY!!! shant mane her..hahas..
o well, today so happy!! why?? cos dun need to go daybreak!! can have a break=)=)
and we were off at 4 plus..the weather was so cool, no sun..
hope will get this kind of weather for every afternoon pe..lols..

oh..i have a running nose, thankx to my beloved mama=/
tml timed prac for essay..no prep at all=.=

~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-01-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

How's my new blogskin!!
i jus changed it..lols..despite doin AQ now..ahhas..bored~~~
this skin is so cute!! and OMG! it looks so yummy! hahahs..
anw tml sch starting..long day ahead..lols..
tis yr cny didn receive much money.. partly becos of family problems..and partly due to the recession..LOLS..
hope 2009 will be a better year =)

2009-01-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

todae CNY celebrations! lols..
there was a grp of elderly from amk who came to our sch to watch the performance..
and..the food prepared for them was good! rare huh..but i nv get the chance to eat..=(
oh..i find that the performance was nicer than last yr, or perhaps its becos many of my classmates are participating in it so i wanted to watch them! HAHA

WUSHU
LL:Damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
YW:HILARIOUS!!! wahahahahaha=D

Chinese orchestra
HZ:cello bass
YH:yang qin

Harmonica
KL:but i nv see him=/

Dance
Shy yng:amazing =)

last but nt least...auntie lim was in malaysia, dumping us in s'pore. Life is boring without her, i hav no one to beat, no one to 'nie'..HAHAHAHAHS....

Anw, back home by 9 plus, tired..ahha..now online..lols...and finally update my blog!=)

2009-01-14T22:37:00.002+08:00

sch started=less slp,tiredness,pimples[2 big pimples on my forehead are pain=/]
nt yet adjust to the study mode..lols..
anw today cca FINALLY start..we nt to daybreak and an incident happen..
my friend's wallet was lost. e others and i still hav our wallets with us probably becos we hav no notes inside it..seems quite lucky..lols..
anw hope that the wallet can be found =)

sth thats buried deep in my heart..

2009-01-07T20:56:00.002+08:00

today went shoppin for e whole day.my legs are pain nw..lols=/
oh..and i bought dresses! LOLS. reason being my parents keep complainin tt i'm nt a gal cos i keep wearing shorts =.= T.T
so i decided to wear dress sometimes =D
well. i dun think anyone of u has seen me in a dress b4 right?
hahahahha..
tml IS MUGGING DAY!!! I WAN COMPLETE MY HW! I Think wil be able to??
i'm nt intendin to do the physic tut on electric current o.O

and so..
fri shop, sat think gg out with jess??sun..hmm..no plans yet..wahahahah..
oh oh..fri do linear equations when i get my gc back..lols!
so i mus hav self-discipline tml..stop myself from watchin tv and movies =D
thts bout all for today...

hw nice would it be if there's no sch..i would rather work..
but i guess the adults will have a different opinion?ahhas..
jus think how much of the skills/content/concepts u learn now wil be put into use in future..
lifelong skills yup, but other than tt..ahhas..i doubt so..
i have no ambition yet!!! T.T

2008-12-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

today wake up at 5am..LOLS...
went for the smu walk thingy to help out..
i didnt expect the first train to be so full..
busy and pathetic life of Singaporeans huh..ahhas...
so today me and yh was makin balloons..lols..
i couldnt learn hw to tie after much attempt, so i decided to blow e balloon..
with the help of machine of course=D
o ya..gt a nice free shirt.HAHAHAHAS..
couldn slp in e afternoon..so continue with my dramas =)

2008-12-19T19:46:00.002+08:00

THIS IS MY NEW BLOG =DD
My old blog may be used in future if i have some secrets to share with! hahas..
gotta start hw next week! lols..
jus watched finish "project ji xiang", which i dun really understand the ending..
oh..and i downloaded maple story =.=
under the persuasion of ROUNDED FACE & FRANCIS..hahas..
which cause my comp to be very lag too..
so that's wad i've to say nw..
update next time ! ^^